Close companions? Yes, we've been together most of my life, if not my entire life. It's just taken me fifty years to acknowledge them.
No, my name is not Sybil.
I have been miserable of late. I lost a job that I loved and was comfortable at. A job where I felt that I was needed. I've had a very hard time adjusting to my new life. Adjusting to the fact that I no longer have this career, this income or the interaction with the people there. So I finally sought out Fate and Destiny and asked them why certain things seem to happen to ME.
FC: So why did I lose my job? Why did that happen to me?
Fate: Do you mean aside from the fact that your employer is in financial straights?
FC: Of course.
Fate: Well you became too comfortable. Too confident in your position.
FC: Too confident?
Fate: Yes, don't you remember? A person asked you if wouldn't you rather be full time at your current part-time job than at the job you lost? You answered "no" because the job you lost was your "bread and butter", it was where your benefits were.
FC: I remember that conversation. It's true, it was my primary job. I had been there 12 years. I worked hard there.
Destiny: You felt like they couldn't function without you?
FC: Yes. I still can't believe they laid me off.
Destiny: Have they called you back?
FC: No and apparently they aren't going to.
Destiny: Then I guess they can function without you. Can't they?
FC: So it was Destiny that I lose my job and my benefits and be cast adrift?
Destiny: Oh, goodness no! That was Fate's decision, not mine.
FC: So Fate, why the need to send me in this direction? Why is it that nothing seems to ever go right? Marriage, relationships, love, finances, work. Nothing goes right. Why? What did I do to deserve this? Do I not deserve some small portion of happiness? Ever?
Fate: Your life course was decided long ago by decisions that you made and that others made for you. The decisions that your parents made for you as a child have bearing on the paths you took as an adult. Their Fate in some small way became a part of you. You married the wrong person, it was Fated to end. I saw to that. But you were Destined to have wonderful children and raise them yourself, my sister oversaw that. Your mother died of cancer, that was her Fate, but your Destiny is to bring awareness of health issues to those around you....something your mother was unable to do. You chose to love a man who belonged to another, our sister Doom lived with you for those years.
FC: Am I still being punished for that affair? He met another and remarried. I met another and it didn't work. How much longer am I to be punished?
Doom: As long as I am with you, you shall be alone. As long as you keep looking for a partner you will live unfulfilled. You will feel me in the pit of your stomach, just as you have since you were in school. I have been with you that long.
FC: But why?
Doom: Because unlike my sisters, Fate and Destiny, I do not want what is best for you and will hold you to me until you accept what ever course they have set you upon.
FC: So, I must accept the fact that I will never regain my position back? My job? That Fate has removed it from me? I don't understand. Why?
Fate: For now, for this present time you must move forward and accept what has happened to you. Until you do this you can not move out from underneath the hold that Doom has upon you nor can you claim the future that Destiny may have prepared for you.
FC: But what is my future?
Destiny: If we told you that, then we'd be out of a job.
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